....I sat alone....

I sat alone...
.
.
.
Gathering my thoughts
In the darkest corner
Of my life
.
As I wiped the tears
That built in the crevices
And fell from the lashes
Of my eyes
.
Wondering why...
.
I couldn't hold them inside...
.
And why...
.
My chest felt so tight
.
And why ...
.
If I wanted to scream out
The lump in my throat
Would silence the cry
.
I just wanted to breathe...
.
For once in my life
Without wondering when
My precious time
.
Would be up
.
And I'd have to pack up
Every single emotion
I brought to the table
.
After being able
And more than willing
To hand over my life
To be a part of his
.
Caring so much
For so little
.
Excited
That my indictment
Carries
A life sentence
.
In the state of loneliness
.
In solitary
Disown.me.ness
.
I'm innocent...
.
But no matter
How many times
I say the shit
.
The jury consists of them
And they're not in my favor
And my lawyer is a public defender
.
Working on the side
Opposite of mine
This summer feels
Like the coldest winter
.
Because my fingertips
Are icy cold
.
From having nothing
To grasp or hold
. .On to . .
Except thoughts running through
The empty spaces
Once occupied by you . . .